Shellswell

There is always a point where I come back in contact : REALITY. I finally started to do things for me and make as some would say money moves. Sure, this can all be expensive but what i have found is spending money on experiences rather than just possessions. The experiences become possessions in my heart. Memories that I can never return back to anyone because, it was mine and in the moment. Purely, just a moment in time indescribable squandering encounter with light. In my ideal blissful excursions there is a crap ton of yellows, blues and oranges. Being explosively engulfed in my choices. Do not get me wrong there is always repercussions in my own choices. Some choices end in alienation, some end in anger, but do I take them back? No. There are times where I look back on my past. The smiles, the conversations, especially the awkward moments. What I am having the most difficult time with at the moment is well, If you ever read my first post "Beginning The Boogie" I quot...

In my life which is considered research for you all. I have found that coffee really gets me going throughout the day. Most of the time I am a snob and like to go to all kinds of different places for it. My coffee dates are special. I only take a select few on these outings. You're welcome. More recently since I have been gone and visiting other folks I have not been able to take the time and enjoy a good ass cup of coffee. But, when I got back I naturally had to go on a date with one of my favorites. A bird who we refer to as Quail. My sweet sweet angel Quail. So, since her name is not on this article I will spill some beans but not all of them because that can get messy. (Side note: ever seen the episode of The Office where Kevin spills his chili all over the floor and then like attempts to scoop it up) (good shit) anywhore, this human is so open to new and exciting moments. She is always ready for a new adventure in which i am crazy in love with about her. SHE IS GOING THRO...

Im in a limbo state of mind. I am in school sure, I am just quit my job, and I can not help but feel that I need to embark on a new endeavor. Sounds dramatic but when am I not? So here it is. I quit my job and I can't bring myself to sit still. All I want to do is hop in my car grab my bags and never look back. I feel like most people feel that way. But, for those people who don't want to leave, who don't want to switch it up, what is keeping you here? What draws you to where you are? Is it love, is it just because? I need to know. I met a man recently who was cool but, he wasn't that sparkle that we are all searching for, if you know what I mean. The thing was he seemed like my ex boyfriend he even had the car to match. (RED FLAG) So I basically ran. Not away from the date I stuck around for that part. In the midst of the date we had something in common he too worked in a coffee shop. For some reason I found this quirky and funny but, it probably isn't all that...

The most simplest and blissful hellos can always be the most impactful and heart wrenching goodbyes. This is the most cliche feeling I have had in awhile, sure that can be dramatic, but it is true. In my travels lately I have been greeted so easily, kindly, and just filled with love. The love I have for my friends is unexplainably strong. I believe that our "soul mates" are our friends the people who are there for you regardless of the countless mistakes and judgements you make. I am guilty of making huge horrible mistakes. Sure, we all do and sure, we learn from them. But, what I learned the most lately is the friends who stick around are the ones who are meant to be. Those guys are my soul mates, my ride or dies, my main hoes. I went to Canada a week or so ago and I could not even explain my blissful feeling of being able to talk to someone face to face once again. I never thought I would have to carry out a long distant relationship again in another country. Here I am d...