PSA: No More Couples
In my life which is considered research for you all. I have found that coffee really gets me going throughout the day. Most of the time I am a snob and like to go to all kinds of different places for it. My coffee dates are special. I only take a select few on these outings. You're welcome.
More recently since I have been gone and visiting other folks I have not been able to take the time and enjoy a good ass cup of coffee. But, when I got back I naturally had to go on a date with one of my favorites. A bird who we refer to as Quail.
My sweet sweet angel Quail. So, since her name is not on this article I will spill some beans but not all of them because that can get messy. (Side note: ever seen the episode of The Office where Kevin spills his chili all over the floor and then like attempts to scoop it up) (good shit) anywhore, this human is so open to new and exciting moments. She is always ready for a new adventure in which i am crazy in love with about her.
SHE IS GOING THROUGH REAL LIFE HEARTBREAK. Real.
How does anyone prepare for a big let down? (Like the big old fat steaming pile of shit delivered to you on your front door step on fire.... with a pink bow (too graphic?) What really is sad is that we never really know what it feels like till it truly goes down in flames ( Then the sack is stuck on your doorstep and its stinky my friends) (ROSES- Outkast). Then, when it happens you can't breathe, the thought of being alone without that person who "completes you" runs your mind in all sorts of directions until it completely and absolutely tears you apart. (Sometimes I feel incredibly cliche but, its all accurate REAL TALK MY DUDES)
Heartbreaks can happen not only with potential suitors or lovers. Everyday, someone is struggling with something they can quite comprehend quite yet. We all have our own paths. That can also be what is exciting about this life we live in. I truly believe we go through things because the universe knows we can handle it but, once you are thrown into it you have to pull yourself back out (Which is not easy and its fucked don't get me wrong).
I can be a drowner ( I am almost drowned in my own pool at house once). I can wallow ( I know stay in shallow water these days). I can sit and ponder "why me" on my hand and knees. I am guilty of sitting in my shower and running the water bill all too high( My mom never questions it because she does NOT want to open that discussion) . BUT, I am one who can pull myself out of things as well as trying to pull my friends out of the deep dark abyss called love (no more couples). Regardless, you can change your life and the way of thinking. Grab on tight to those who are willing to help and be there for you( Love you).
I think that being friend is someone who can be there no matter what. No matter the differences and the paths life leads us away form others, a friend always finds their way back home. (Home is where the heart is. Ill knit that shit on a pillow when I'm old. LOL.. so now). I have latched onto some people in my life whether they were ready for me or not but some have pulled the latches off right up from under me.
Its nice to find people who understand exactly what you are feeling. Quail said something to me the other day that resonated well, "Why do people say things they don't mean?" "Life would be so much simpler if they were straight forward from the get go."
I didn't have an answer for her. I am guilty of bending my truth and saying things to make other people happy at times. But, that is me being weak and not going after what makes me happy. I have some work to do in that department. In which I'm working on. Its a beautiful thing just being straight up so, basically being a boss ass bitch.
Each heartbreak we learn something new about ourselves and what we want in our futures. Even though I didn't go through it myself. I was just a bystander (this time) but, I learned to whole heartedly to say what I mean and when I say it. I crave to have the passion my bird has.
Boss ass bitches speaking the truth with a dash of passion. :)
That is all I got.
XXX,
Shell
More recently since I have been gone and visiting other folks I have not been able to take the time and enjoy a good ass cup of coffee. But, when I got back I naturally had to go on a date with one of my favorites. A bird who we refer to as Quail.
My sweet sweet angel Quail. So, since her name is not on this article I will spill some beans but not all of them because that can get messy. (Side note: ever seen the episode of The Office where Kevin spills his chili all over the floor and then like attempts to scoop it up) (good shit) anywhore, this human is so open to new and exciting moments. She is always ready for a new adventure in which i am crazy in love with about her.
SHE IS GOING THROUGH REAL LIFE HEARTBREAK. Real.
How does anyone prepare for a big let down? (Like the big old fat steaming pile of shit delivered to you on your front door step on fire.... with a pink bow (too graphic?) What really is sad is that we never really know what it feels like till it truly goes down in flames ( Then the sack is stuck on your doorstep and its stinky my friends) (ROSES- Outkast). Then, when it happens you can't breathe, the thought of being alone without that person who "completes you" runs your mind in all sorts of directions until it completely and absolutely tears you apart. (Sometimes I feel incredibly cliche but, its all accurate REAL TALK MY DUDES)
Heartbreaks can happen not only with potential suitors or lovers. Everyday, someone is struggling with something they can quite comprehend quite yet. We all have our own paths. That can also be what is exciting about this life we live in. I truly believe we go through things because the universe knows we can handle it but, once you are thrown into it you have to pull yourself back out (Which is not easy and its fucked don't get me wrong).
I can be a drowner ( I am almost drowned in my own pool at house once). I can wallow ( I know stay in shallow water these days). I can sit and ponder "why me" on my hand and knees. I am guilty of sitting in my shower and running the water bill all too high( My mom never questions it because she does NOT want to open that discussion) . BUT, I am one who can pull myself out of things as well as trying to pull my friends out of the deep dark abyss called love (no more couples). Regardless, you can change your life and the way of thinking. Grab on tight to those who are willing to help and be there for you( Love you).
I think that being friend is someone who can be there no matter what. No matter the differences and the paths life leads us away form others, a friend always finds their way back home. (Home is where the heart is. Ill knit that shit on a pillow when I'm old. LOL.. so now). I have latched onto some people in my life whether they were ready for me or not but some have pulled the latches off right up from under me.
Its nice to find people who understand exactly what you are feeling. Quail said something to me the other day that resonated well, "Why do people say things they don't mean?" "Life would be so much simpler if they were straight forward from the get go."
I didn't have an answer for her. I am guilty of bending my truth and saying things to make other people happy at times. But, that is me being weak and not going after what makes me happy. I have some work to do in that department. In which I'm working on. Its a beautiful thing just being straight up so, basically being a boss ass bitch.
Each heartbreak we learn something new about ourselves and what we want in our futures. Even though I didn't go through it myself. I was just a bystander (this time) but, I learned to whole heartedly to say what I mean and when I say it. I crave to have the passion my bird has.
Boss ass bitches speaking the truth with a dash of passion. :)
That is all I got.
XXX,
Shell
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