Appreciation Post
The most simplest and blissful hellos can always be the most impactful and heart wrenching goodbyes. This is the most cliche feeling I have had in awhile, sure that can be dramatic, but it is true. In my travels lately I have been greeted so easily, kindly, and just filled with love. The love I have for my friends is unexplainably strong. I believe that our "soul mates" are our friends the people who are there for you regardless of the countless mistakes and judgements you make.
I am guilty of making huge horrible mistakes.
Sure, we all do and sure, we learn from them. But, what I learned the most lately is the friends who stick around are the ones who are meant to be. Those guys are my soul mates, my ride or dies, my main hoes. I went to Canada a week or so ago and I could not even explain my blissful feeling of being able to talk to someone face to face once again. I never thought I would have to carry out a long distant relationship again in another country. Here I am doing that thing again we call love. So the trip was dope if you need more details then read my last blog post but, towards the end I knew we had to go back to our normal daily lives and greeted once again with virtual contact (which is bullshit if you ask me). I had to leave my soulmate behind, but if someone is your soulmate they stick around for the old and gray days. obviously we already know it is going to be a wild party.
Cory is someone who just can make life so easy we get along like Cheech and Chong. She can make me laugh, smile, and cry all in one. Sometimes I begin to wonder if we had the privilege of meeting in a past life. She drives me crazy like most but I love her. I love you.
I never thought I would have to say goodbye to so many people in my life already but, the goodbyes (I am a huge cry baby I get the watery eyes and its all downhill from there) they are necessary because it is the only way to keep growing and let those around you grow as well. I can not wait to be with my girls all in one room once again but in the meantime, we keep going.
Goodbyes are rough. I left what I consider home on Monday (Arizona). I walked away from the front door looked back and saw my crazy ass Granny show some real emotion. She got choked up and clearly she was sad to see me go. She said "I love you" FIRST! Meaning legit before me. That is a huge deal for me. I cried as I drove away and it was just messy. "Tiny Dancer"- Elton John came on and naturally I just started to ball even further. I needed coffee STAT. I walked into the coffee shop and realized I looked like a crack whore.
On to Joshua Tree we go.
That wasn't the last good bye of the day. I drove through the desert coffee in hand tears a flowing and belting music from the top of my lungs. I met one of my number ones in Joshua Tree where I had a lovely hello and a heartbreaking good bye. Jacqu has been my girl since I was fourteen. I never knew that she would be so important to me in my life when I was young. Boy am I glad we met. Some people are just always there for you. I know when I text her she will be responding quicker than most. She makes me know life is okay to make moves and do things that scare me. A while back she decided she was going to be a biker babe naturally I had doubts but she is so head strong that she knew what she wanted. I am envious of that she always knows what she wants and goes after it. I whole heartedly love you. Completely.
Traveling is rough. Growing up is rough. Friends moving away is rough.
I have a picture the day Jenna left on her adventure to San diego. I look at it from time to time to remember what life was before we all changed. I adore you for embarking on a change that I couldn't. What would love be without you? I love you.
Change is good. Struggling is good. Love is good.
There are so many more people to thank but this would take years.
That feeling when you drive away is gut wrenching. The sweetest hellos are the most mind bottling good byes. Love is coming your way from me.
XXX,
Shell
I am guilty of making huge horrible mistakes.
Sure, we all do and sure, we learn from them. But, what I learned the most lately is the friends who stick around are the ones who are meant to be. Those guys are my soul mates, my ride or dies, my main hoes. I went to Canada a week or so ago and I could not even explain my blissful feeling of being able to talk to someone face to face once again. I never thought I would have to carry out a long distant relationship again in another country. Here I am doing that thing again we call love. So the trip was dope if you need more details then read my last blog post but, towards the end I knew we had to go back to our normal daily lives and greeted once again with virtual contact (which is bullshit if you ask me). I had to leave my soulmate behind, but if someone is your soulmate they stick around for the old and gray days. obviously we already know it is going to be a wild party.
Cory is someone who just can make life so easy we get along like Cheech and Chong. She can make me laugh, smile, and cry all in one. Sometimes I begin to wonder if we had the privilege of meeting in a past life. She drives me crazy like most but I love her. I love you.
I never thought I would have to say goodbye to so many people in my life already but, the goodbyes (I am a huge cry baby I get the watery eyes and its all downhill from there) they are necessary because it is the only way to keep growing and let those around you grow as well. I can not wait to be with my girls all in one room once again but in the meantime, we keep going.
Goodbyes are rough. I left what I consider home on Monday (Arizona). I walked away from the front door looked back and saw my crazy ass Granny show some real emotion. She got choked up and clearly she was sad to see me go. She said "I love you" FIRST! Meaning legit before me. That is a huge deal for me. I cried as I drove away and it was just messy. "Tiny Dancer"- Elton John came on and naturally I just started to ball even further. I needed coffee STAT. I walked into the coffee shop and realized I looked like a crack whore.
On to Joshua Tree we go.
That wasn't the last good bye of the day. I drove through the desert coffee in hand tears a flowing and belting music from the top of my lungs. I met one of my number ones in Joshua Tree where I had a lovely hello and a heartbreaking good bye. Jacqu has been my girl since I was fourteen. I never knew that she would be so important to me in my life when I was young. Boy am I glad we met. Some people are just always there for you. I know when I text her she will be responding quicker than most. She makes me know life is okay to make moves and do things that scare me. A while back she decided she was going to be a biker babe naturally I had doubts but she is so head strong that she knew what she wanted. I am envious of that she always knows what she wants and goes after it. I whole heartedly love you. Completely.
Traveling is rough. Growing up is rough. Friends moving away is rough.
I have a picture the day Jenna left on her adventure to San diego. I look at it from time to time to remember what life was before we all changed. I adore you for embarking on a change that I couldn't. What would love be without you? I love you.
Change is good. Struggling is good. Love is good.
There are so many more people to thank but this would take years.
That feeling when you drive away is gut wrenching. The sweetest hellos are the most mind bottling good byes. Love is coming your way from me.
XXX,
Shell
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