Shellswell

Misunderstandings. Damn those are tough. You could think you are doing the right thing at one time but in the next few seconds your entire world could be upside down. Now that is crazy. I might be over dramatic in that sense but such small things can just change your perception of people. Example, alcohol is a wild thing you never know what will happen when you're out and about have a couple or four too many. That silly beverage makes you do things you normally wouldn't do but sometimes damn is it fun. The empowerment to make a move on that guy you've been crushing on since freaking NAM. Now thats a long time. Or maybe stealing your ex-boyfriends drink and pounding it right in front of him then saying "Thanks for fucking my Best-Friend". Or maybe in the course of the evening you are chasing a boy, who damn girl is "just not that into you" but somehow you  manage to shimmy your way towards him in hopes he's gonna want you back. But, boy oh boy does he...

Half asssing!  I’ve had a writers block lately. I feel as though I have gone into hibernation. I kind of have just been avoiding life. I go to school, then yoga, then homework, then Netflix. I am currently under a rock. I don’t know why I am in the funkiest of all funks. It’s strange. I love to be out and about but lately I haven’t been interested in being an explorer. WHATS WRONG WITH ME?? Sometimes I have the problem with being too proud or maybe just too arrogant, I don’t know. The toughest thing lately that I have been experiencing is just admitting I am wrong. I have had two instances lately where in the end I’m just cold turkey, wrong. I feel as though a big thing about growing up is realizing you’re not always right and in the end you need to admit it. Being a big girl is rough.  Well, that’s what I have right now. Hopefully this will get the ball rolling again on the writting. I hope I don’t drop off the face of the earth like I did for the past week and a half....

Theres tons of people in our lives that make an impression. Whether it be their smile, looks, personality or maybe an odd mixture off all those things. The person who I love the most is not just anyone, he is so much more than that. You know when you vibe with someone and you look at them and you can't help but laugh. You look into that persons eyes and you know you're just going to be okay. My favorite person definitely has paved me to be who I am today whether he knows that or not,  he has. Its strange the people who I can't seem to get rid of and who break my heart the most are the ones I want to be closest with. My absolute favorite person is full of love and warmth. He is absolutely the strongest fellow I know and I strive to be just as strong as him. He can be a bitch sometimes but hey he was the guy that took me to the skatepark even when I wore my little wedges and scooter. When in doubt believe it or not when in complete and utter failure I call you. You have to ha...

Do you ever get the sense that you are just blowing it? If you did something different or acted in a different way that someone or something wouldn't have reacted or responded in that way? Maybe just maybe you wouldn't be left questioning the whole interaction? Sometimes all we are left with to say is just "okay". We have no other answer because "okay" was all we could possibly come up with. I am left at times thinking about what kind of memories or things I have done and I wonder if it was ever too much or maybe I should not have experienced it. However, recently I have been utterly confused there are no answers to my confusion and I can't even go to the source for the answers. Sure I said recently that maybe we are meant to be alone but being alone can be so hard. What if you need the help to figure out the answer? I also wonder what the other party is thinking. If you are reading Hi, I hope you are doing well. You know, you hang out with a guy once or...

When looking around in a room dimly lit it can be seen so romantically. I recently went to a live show in an old school building where you can see up the rafters( the new modern look). The building itself was red brick.  The lighting was so perfect for the scene cute little twinkle lights kinda like a backyard scene. I wondered how old the building was, who and what was there before. I have this love for history and when I am in an old building I tend to nerd the heck out. It was a casual scene the alcohol served was only beer and wine. The beer was served in just cans,not glasses, so it was casual but just humbling vibe. The smell that was coming across was fried chicken because there was random fried chicken place inside the venue. While I was there marveling in this old dingy building i was in a new environment. I looked around and realized that I myself was standing alone and noticed i was in a big group of people just standing alone. Sad boy Jones who brought me to this concer...