Wizards and Reptiles Just Blowing This Popsicle Stand

Do you ever get the sense that you are just blowing it? If you did something different or acted in a different way that someone or something wouldn't have reacted or responded in that way? Maybe just maybe you wouldn't be left questioning the whole interaction? Sometimes all we are left with to say is just "okay". We have no other answer because "okay" was all we could possibly come up with. I am left at times thinking about what kind of memories or things I have done and I wonder if it was ever too much or maybe I should not have experienced it. However, recently I have been utterly confused there are no answers to my confusion and I can't even go to the source for the answers. Sure I said recently that maybe we are meant to be alone but being alone can be so hard. What if you need the help to figure out the answer? I also wonder what the other party is thinking. If you are reading Hi, I hope you are doing well. You know, you hang out with a guy once or twice and you think hey this guy could be dope, but then all of the sudden POOF, they're gone. Freaking wizard shit am I right? I like to think I am a pretty understudying person but you know this wizard shit is exhausting. AND THAT IS THE THING MY FABULOUS READERS! We need to stop looking to Hogwarts for the answers. What we really are searching for is the badass cowboys. Or so I think. Yet again this is all research. I am using my own personal well being for research.. You're welcome.
Time is cool thing. Even though it may mean we are getting older it does show us some crazy different things. Im nostalgic tonight. I saw the Bahamas recently and was so consumed by the concert. "Show Me Naomi" is a bop (bop means like good or groovy)(it something my friends and I say and if you are reading we are friends now so pick up the term). Ahah.
I think that when you feel like you are "blowing it" that we should not feel alone mostly because that too is a time for growth. Growth is just so beautiful. Even if the puppy you bough off of craigslist turns out to not be an Australian Shepherd and is some random ass mix. Even that growth can still be so beautiful because she's the built in friend that can never escape. Well she could but you get the point I think.
What I am getting at is that you are not blowing it. It is just all in the timing, I suppose. Timing is everything even when you're off on timing with someone else you are surely just on track to wherever  you are off to next. I promise. The small rivets in the road are all apart of the plan just wait and see my friends. We are all going to get there. Find what makes you happy first sweet thang. The rest will come in time.