Are Things Better Left in The Dark?

When looking around in a room dimly lit it can be seen so romantically. I recently went to a live show in an old school building where you can see up the rafters( the new modern look). The building itself was red brick.  The lighting was so perfect for the scene cute little twinkle lights kinda like a backyard scene. I wondered how old the building was, who and what was there before. I have this love for history and when I am in an old building I tend to nerd the heck out. It was a casual scene the alcohol served was only beer and wine. The beer was served in just cans,not glasses, so it was casual but just humbling vibe. The smell that was coming across was fried chicken because there was random fried chicken place inside the venue. While I was there marveling in this old dingy building i was in a new environment. I looked around and realized that I myself was standing alone and noticed i was in a big group of people just standing alone. Sad boy Jones who brought me to this concert event thing left me for a short second and even in that small moment in time i got tense. I knew there was other people alone but once i was really alone i got nervous. I have a tough time trying to grow up. I have been single for almost a year now and I've learned oh so much. Its wild. My question is what if we are meant to be alone? and the little relationships are just meant to come and go? I am consistently so consumed by finding a potential suitor but what if, just if, that we are supposed to be alone. Picture this. We go ahead and turn the lights on to those who were standing alone in that concert. We unveil the truths behind them and all their struggles. We figure out who they really are. But, why didn't I approach the people at that moment in that time in the dark? Why didn't anyone approach me? As terrified as I am of being alone what if that's exactly what we came for or it is exactly what I needed? To be completely alone in that moment, in that crowd of people, just wanting to just be. We all were just listening to a band that managed to touch all our hearts in different ways. IS LIFE BETTER LEFT WITH THE LIGHTS OFF? Are we better off knowing the truth or left with the questions?
Recently in my life I have had a tough time just leaving things be. I always get so consumed with the unanswered questions. Once I lose all of my marbles In end up making matter worse but confronting the ghosts or people of my past who should have probably been left just where I lost them last. Life's weird in that way when I see people from my past i get a sense of relief and happiness but then I realize where they need to be and for now its really not with me.