Shellswell

FULL DISCLOSURE, this blog is not formal by any means. I ask a lot of questions. A lot of the times they are at points that do not make any sense. I tend to think it is more for research or just the hope of getting to know you. Hoping to just let someone or something let them give me a try. Most of the time it could come off annoying but honestly, I know most keep their clique small to make big moves (Saweetie quote) ANYWAYS, why I ask so many questions is partly because I want to get to know everyone. I want to be able to find some sort of connection and to further my research. We all say and do things for a better future. But, what makes us stop our future? We hear all these incredible stories starting from the bottom now we're here (Drake. Lol I'm on a roll) but, what about the stories of the middle class or lower class who struggle and just float along. I guess there is nothing so interesting about that but, I don't know it may sound silly, I just want know about e...

Howdy Seems to be how I open most conversations lately. I have not written in a long time. Partly because I could not put words into what it was I really wanted to say. For most of us it seems like life is constantly changing and there are just moments when you stop and look around to see that you are not in control, or maybe you are just not as happy as you portray yourself. In this extent I can clarify it as .. Yes, I am going to school. Sure, I have tons of clothes and a roof over my head. Definitely, I have a body that is more than equipped to do physical activities and get me to point A and B. BUT, What about our mental state? What about our emotional stability? Something that has been looming over me lately is just simply asking someone for help. Isn't it strange how having a teacher and consistently hearing them say " My office hours are this... My email is this...." but, when you do reach out to them they refer you to a syllabus or their teacher aid or sim...

Hey boys, The definition of enamored is to be filled with a feeling of love. Now let me explain this very stupid, stupid feeling. Well, my life seems to be filled with constant movie scenarios where I may or may not put myself in these situations that leave me definitely confused. Have you ever had this consuming mind bottling crush that literally is just unexplainable. There is not much to it, maybe its just attraction, maybe its just the sex, maybe just maybe its infatuation. Marroon five wrote a song about infatuation once. Boy is that band underrated. Anyways, isn't it strange how you can have such a middle school crush but really you know nothing about that person? You get the shaky voice, I even get those stupid shaky hands. Does that even make sense? For someone like myself who is not super lovey dovey or into any type of that nonsense, I can help but want to be romantic. How lame. My best friend told me "oh my god you do have a heart?" I never catch fe...

Maybe this was a challenge for all of you. Maybe this was not planned, but here we are. We are here and we are all connected in a cosmic way. This cosmic way is a virus. Now we weren’t prepared but we were engulfed and trampled like a tsunami, our lives changed all so quickly, unexplainably and yet for there to be a cure. Maybe, this happened to for all us to decide to grow, to become something we never for saw for ourselves. The beauty is maybe we have the chance to explore something from our past. We all are experiencing changes and hard ships that are beyond our control but, it’s up to us to make the best of what is happening. I recently, before the virus was existing in my day to day life, was lost and consumed by the excitement of working in a bar setting and being surrounded by people who were just like me or similar. Just looking for a light to follow in the lives we live. In the essence I found great people but as time went on I began to lose who I was. I lost my path. It happ...