How far, Is too far? (Fuck it)
Was it worth the drive?
I am a hopeless romantic. Plain and simple.
I have high hopes for anyone. I don't necessarily believe in judging a book by its cover. My gut though always shows me what the reality is. Most of the time I don't follow the gut. (Sorry Gut)
I strongly believe in giving anyone a chance regardless of the exterior. I find it fun and exciting to try anything on. In the grand scheme though I usually get slapped in the face because BOOM reality settles in and they are exactly what you predicted.
Sometimes, you just fall for some guys smooth lines.
As I was driving today, I realized the man does not even know a damn thing about me. Most of the guys lately do not even know me in the slightest. I don't know why it can't be so easy find a guy fall in love with and do the damn thing. Im in no rush to get married, god no, gross. But, a girl can wish for some consistent sex, am I right?
My mantra has always been "Fuck It" do it for research. But, lately it hasn't even been worth the research because its been hard to come across even someone who will say what they mean and mean what they say. I know in my heart I have had a one really great love that was so quick and easy and a second love that just completely broke me into bits. Naturally, when they come to an end its messy but we all have to pick up the pieces and keep going.
What I know now though is from those pieces I have picked up, I know what I want. We all are looking for love but in different ways. Today, I got a refresher and a cold reality check that just made me realize, that I am not just looking for a lover but, I am looking to just spend my sunsets with people who actually matter.
Ghosts are people who are from your pasts but they always creep back in when you least expect it. It can be a good thing to remind you, like man I dodged that bullet or just a confirmation that you are steering yourself into the right direction.
It feels weird and awkward in the midst of it but, thank you for the reminder. I needed that.
I am a hopeless romantic. Plain and simple.
I have high hopes for anyone. I don't necessarily believe in judging a book by its cover. My gut though always shows me what the reality is. Most of the time I don't follow the gut. (Sorry Gut)
I strongly believe in giving anyone a chance regardless of the exterior. I find it fun and exciting to try anything on. In the grand scheme though I usually get slapped in the face because BOOM reality settles in and they are exactly what you predicted.
Sometimes, you just fall for some guys smooth lines.
As I was driving today, I realized the man does not even know a damn thing about me. Most of the guys lately do not even know me in the slightest. I don't know why it can't be so easy find a guy fall in love with and do the damn thing. Im in no rush to get married, god no, gross. But, a girl can wish for some consistent sex, am I right?
My mantra has always been "Fuck It" do it for research. But, lately it hasn't even been worth the research because its been hard to come across even someone who will say what they mean and mean what they say. I know in my heart I have had a one really great love that was so quick and easy and a second love that just completely broke me into bits. Naturally, when they come to an end its messy but we all have to pick up the pieces and keep going.
What I know now though is from those pieces I have picked up, I know what I want. We all are looking for love but in different ways. Today, I got a refresher and a cold reality check that just made me realize, that I am not just looking for a lover but, I am looking to just spend my sunsets with people who actually matter.
Ghosts are people who are from your pasts but they always creep back in when you least expect it. It can be a good thing to remind you, like man I dodged that bullet or just a confirmation that you are steering yourself into the right direction.
It feels weird and awkward in the midst of it but, thank you for the reminder. I needed that.
Love to you.
Xxx
Bisous,
Shell
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