Shellswell

Howdy babies, I think my spirit animal is a lizard. I know, weird, but hear me out. My tail is always falling off from unforeseen anarchy.. my alter ego Lola is not a casual evening kind of gal. I’m constantly shedding my skin seasoning myself to new changes. Now this post is not all about changes and me now being able to conquer them I’m not that empowered yet. We all know I’ve been a train wreck lately.  This post is about something that I have written about before. Where we are going in this post is things that remind you of home or just a consistent thing/ tradition. During my summers I tend to fall off the radar or grid to all my friends. I am a Grandma’s girl. But, really I am a Granny’s girl and she’s mine. Granny is the nickname don’t ware it out. We both are a bit crazy and we constantly bicker about nonsense. At the end of the day during my summers we are together.  Most people go on exotic vacations to get those bronze tans and drink tons of pina colada’s...

Was it worth the drive? I am a hopeless romantic. Plain and simple.  I have high hopes for anyone. I don't necessarily believe in judging a book by its cover. My gut though always shows me what the reality is. Most of the time I don't follow the gut. (Sorry Gut) I strongly believe in giving anyone a chance regardless of the exterior. I find it fun and exciting to try anything on. In the grand scheme though I usually get slapped in the face because BOOM reality settles in and they are exactly what you predicted.  Sometimes, you just fall for some guys smooth lines. As I was driving today, I realized the man does not even know a damn thing about me. Most of the guys lately do not even know me in the slightest. I don't know why it can't be so easy find a guy fall in love with and do the damn thing. Im in no rush to get married, god no, gross. But, a girl can wish for some consistent sex, am I right? My mantra has always been "Fuck It" do it for researc...

One of my closest friends who happens to be someone who’s a smidge older than me told me recently being 22-24 life is weirder than weird. She’s not wrong. Lately I have not been able to focus on myself I think it’s partly because I just moved out and being on my own is stressful. I haven’t been around my best friends much and I think it’s partly me just not being able to come to terms with all of my changes. I know that sounds silly because I am writing about it so clearly I am aware of it. But, on the contrary your girl is still overwhelmed. I think I have been pulling away from just about everything, whether I see it happening or not I can’t seem to let people in lately.    Early twenties man, no one really prepares you for the whole hearted truth of the twenties is that well, they suck. Going out and partying with your friends is just about the best part of it all. The truth and the ugly truth is drinking is covering up the mess of the twenties. The attempt to forget the a...

My biggest goal in life is to just make people happy. The reason why I chose to write or use my creative side is to be relatable, to make sure that to whoever is reading that everything is going to be okay. We all tend to bring this heavy weight on our shoulders to equate to perfection. Perfection is simply unachievable, well in my book. I haven’t written in awhile because I simply had no reason to. I didn’t feel the urge or the necessity, we all have those slumps in life I guess.  I started a new job recently. I have large envy for people who can adapt all so quickly into situations or new realms easily. I adore meeting new people and attempting to get to know them but, I know in the back of my head that I am desperately just trying become friends with them. My awkward stage is strange it’s like I am a different human. I hate it, I suppose I feel like I can’t be myself scared to show my true self.  Trust is a crazy thing. I have a tough time just letting myself fall....