Shellswell

Hey folks, As of late I’ve been comjumbled with thoughts. Life is always full of choices. Sure we make choices off of our own benefit but it seems as though even in the passenger seat without the choices the things that just happen without our opinion or please seem to happy to all workout. Naturally, we just hope it all flows in the most perfect way but sometimes that’s not the way it is. My granny asked me recently what I want out of this life of mine. What is the end goal and desire. I love these questions. They get my mind flowing with fleeting and ambiguous thoughts. My granny got married twice once to a man who I know nothing about but, boy did he bring the most precious bad ass into my life. Don. Her second marriage was full and short. He died young from cancer but he brought to her my aunt and my mother. One. My twin, born the day after me. Two. My gorgeous Moma. I answered to her, I want to be on a farm or somewhere where I can have plenty of dogs and children. Also, a...

If you don’t remember this blog is just about me writing nonsense and just trying to make y’all smile or be relatable. I also like to write about what’s going on. It’s funny how we can weed out who we are interested in or who we are kicking to the curb. Thinking back I don’t think I would have dated the people I dated in the past. I know now that I learned so much, maybe that’s all apart of what growing is up all about. I got asked recently, if I was dating or interested in anyone but I answered “no absolutely not”. I know there’s always the off chance that I’ll meet someone anyone at this point but right now it’s not looking so hot. I have fleeting feelings towards those of my past but then I remember the things I have felt and regretted. I am sure we all feel those things. It’s hard being young and unsure of the forever. I want to know what forever feels like. I know being scared of the reality and dating is nonsense but at the moment I am fed up being hurt and nauseous knowing wh...