Shellswell

There is those moments when you look over and see a sharp and depressing memory. There’s just a simple name or like a song that just pierces at you.  The month of April is rough. There is nothing simple and short to say about it other than it fucking sucks.  That’s just me. April is like the month that just creeps up on me and then all of the sudden the world just crashes down on me.  I make stupid mistakes. Where I am I just in this snowball effect of rushing feelings. I know certain things shouldn’t effect me the way it does but it does.  I fall too hard I commit too easily And  I fear too little That bites me in the ass. Sometimes we do things without thinking. We just get in the car and drive. Put on our favorite song and boom we are in a trance. A love trance it’s easy to avoid the truth of the reality. I sneak off to my favorite bar when I am just needing to get out.  Doing things that scare you.... I don’t like goin...

Ah, Its been about a month. Hello, I am back, it is I Lately, there has been this lingering feeling and thought of "SAYING WHAT YOU MEAN, MEAN WHAT YOU SAY." I have ran into a bundle of people some who are close to me and some who just happen to be that passing through stranger. These people I come across are either struggling to say the honest truth or just ultimately not understanding what the other person is saying. People are confusing and words are hard. GET TO THE FUCKING POINT Why would you want to waste your own personal time talking to someone (who may not give two fucks about you) when in reality they do not see the potential that you see in them. Sadly, this is common. More common then not in my own life. I tend to make this decision in giving people the opportunity to come in my life. Then those people stick around and blow like that annoying wind chime when its all too windy in that Santa Ana winds (I also end up with a fucking twig or thing in my eye. Al...