She's Gone

It’s strange how Facebook has the perfect timing. You forget about certain pieces of your life or attempt to at least. Then you quickly get reminders of something you are missing. A year ago my life was completely different. My life right now is beautifully pieced together but in the back of my mind I remember what life was a year ago. I was playing waterpolo in devishly great shape and I was in love. Life can be so hard when you have unanswered questions but in reality we are always left with most questions left blank. Why is that? We as humans are constantly afraid of change but those who embrace change are able to grow. We avoid places but in my personal case I have avoided an entire city without even realizing it. I have not been back to LA since you left. I recently drove to the airport in LA to pick up my mom and step dad. I truly didn't realize I have not been back since I saw and kissed you last. Had I really known it was my last bits of you I would have made it more romantic add a dip in there or maybe just pack myself up in your bag. I am not really missing much here just you. I haven't been to Griffith  Observatory, Venice Beach, I avoid the double fisted hand gestures and most importantly I don't like Hall & Oates. If you have ever seen the Wedding Singer with Adam Sandler there is a part in the movie where they sing the song "Love Stinks" and boy have they hit the money with that. How do we know who were supposed to be with and place our efforts in. I have made a lot of mistakes in my mere twenty years of existence but choosing you was not a mistake. It was simply lucky to be able to find someone that you didn't mind spending an obscene amount of time with. The morning I gave you the time of day and we went for a coastal drive to see the beautiful scenery in complete darkness was a silly move on my part. I wasn't the foreigner here, I was  from there but who's really counting here..I knew I loved you then and thats who I wanted to spend my time with. It has been a year and I can't seem to get my mind off of you. I wonder where you are who you are with and who you are seeing. I hate this song now however it bring some good foreshadowing for the future. "She's Gone"- Hall & Oates XXX Bisous. You know who you are reader.